Rainy days

Rainy Days
I dont know about u but it was raining in my kneck of the woods.Cool enough to wear pants :)

Drove around bowie to find where my mother is doing her externship [she's a medical assistant]. Fun but i'm tired, had Honey Chipotle wings-SOOOO GOOD!!!!

Today's Grievance's: Leaving florida and the what could've beens.

Today's Outfit: Skinny jeans&sheer beige ruffle polka dot top [Both charlotte russe]Black under shirt [kohls]

I always second guess myself, and i hate it. Tomarrow is the Last first day of school for my lovelys in Florida.That is why my picture for today is of my last day in Florida.This post is dedicated to them. I love and miss every last inch and being of that pennisula. Keep me in your thoughts,remeber there's only one first day of highschool freshman year, think of when u met me.Cause i'll never forget when i met u..

Butterfly kisses

Butterfly kisses
It takes something like getting you're eye brows done to really set things straight.
I've had so much on my mind. Men on my mind. The other night i was looking back at old myspace messages [from when i lived in Florida]. Just going over it made me see how much I've grown up. I always said back then how i wasn't scared of being some one and i really believed that. But looking back, i was. And i let alot of great guys that i really cared about go. Especially Paul*. The most perfect guy for me,even wanted to go out with me but no because he was "too nice". WTF??? i was an idiot. I think i realize that when i started to fall for him, the same time i found out i was moving. That last day, came him just to say goodbye to me and yes i know it sounds cliche and mushy and i hate it but kinda fit perfectly into each others arms. There i said it. Point is, i don't wanna mess things up like i usually do.

Today's grievance's: Mosquito's.

Today's outfit: In the picture, paired with those cowboy boots.Never wore boots with a dress [minus leggings] before, and i liked it :]

God if you're reading, just let me know if I'm doing alright.

Theres just something bout summer

There's just something about summer

Yesterday i decided to finally be a grown up and tell *him how i felt. "Do what you think is best" What the heck am i suppose to do with that?!?! I'm not saying I'd expect him to burst into tears but dammit, i hoped he would at least make an effort to keep me. I basically told I'm that i don't know if i can trust him but I'm crazy about him and that i don't know what to do. He couldn't even say " you know what heather, i know whats best for you- me". Which means i was right about him. It sucks tho, i think he'll always have my heart. I'll always fall after,and for him. But like a lot of things in summer ;it has to end; at some point you have to set what you want from reality.

It rained again and i have to say Ive been a hater of rain but rain in the summer, is absolute bliss. I feel so drained emotionally and physically. Yoga has been a god send. Finding my center for at least 10 minutes is a total relief.

Like a true blonde, i have many conflicting thoughts. I just cant seem to get this growing up thing right. I may feel like a 40 year old with all this stress but do my actions show the maturity that i envision i do?

I need a good nights rest.

Life may be short but its hard. And this little blonde girl just wants to be home with *hank. Home is Florida and *hank is.... to be continued.....