There's just something about summer
Yesterday i decided to finally be a grown up and tell *him how i felt. "Do what you think is best" What the heck am i suppose to do with that?!?! I'm not saying I'd expect him to burst into tears but dammit, i hoped he would at least make an effort to keep me. I basically told I'm that i don't know if i can trust him but I'm crazy about him and that i don't know what to do. He couldn't even say " you know what heather, i know whats best for you- me". Which means i was right about him. It sucks tho, i think he'll always have my heart. I'll always fall after,and for him. But like a lot of things in summer ;it has to end; at some point you have to set what you want from reality.
It rained again and i have to say Ive been a hater of rain but rain in the summer, is absolute bliss. I feel so drained emotionally and physically. Yoga has been a god send. Finding my center for at least 10 minutes is a total relief.
Like a true blonde, i have many conflicting thoughts. I just cant seem to get this growing up thing right. I may feel like a 40 year old with all this stress but do my actions show the maturity that i envision i do?
I need a good nights rest.
Life may be short but its hard. And this little blonde girl just wants to be home with *hank. Home is Florida and *hank is.... to be continued.....
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