To his stomach

Didn't mama always say "the way to a man's heart is through his stomach"?

Today i ponder this thought with the simple fact that in all modesty, I am an amazing cook and baker. I can cook or bake anything. Which i know being a fast learner and being a blonde is a bit of a contradiction. This year hasn't been the best in the man department. People always say to me: Why are you single? And this is the point where i want to assault them. Why, please tell what the need for that question is [ha ha]. I'm only 17 and that question makes me sound broken. Every year there is an overall tone why things didn't work out. This year was about wanting to be put first. Which i totally understand how hard must be for a guy to actually WANT to be with one person and one only. I was the back-up or the fall back. For a while i didn't think i deserved better. That was just self pity though and I'm disappointed in myself for thinking that way. I just want to be put first, I'm putting my standards aside. How are you supposed to be happy when by limiting yourself- your keeping yourself from happiness. I don't care anymore if hes the hottest, or the most buff or has amazing hair. I'm working on being happy in relationships. I think I'm one of those girls who sabotages relationships subconsciously. I always go after guys that don't live in MD or that i know i cant have. I love being single, i love it. I've always been a humongous flirt and being in a relationship kinda takes that away.Living as a single girl, its easy but when you think about being a taken girl; it depresses you. Being Blonde & single is different then just being single. We're stereotyped as the "bombshell" and when that bombshell is solo- it makes you wonder. We're looked as being the party girl, the ditsy girl, the slutty girl. Why cant we ever be just a girl? You don't have to be older to see that its transparent, to even us 17 year olds.