Dreams [Not the Aspirating Kind]I couldn't sleep again last night, and i mean i really didn't sleep. Went to "go to" bed at 10:00 PM and didn't actually fall asleep till about 2AM. But when i did sleep i had the most peculiar yet realistic dream. Lately I've been having these dreams. So far they've come true. No I'm not saying I'm psychic but i do think there's something about them. Maybe my subconscious is trying to look out for me.
I hate getting mushy and gushy about my feelings: the simple phrase "I feel...." is much foreign to me. Maybe that's the part where I'm not like a blonde. Most blonde's talk all the time, or don't say a single word; there is no middle ground. I talk a lot but i hate talking about how i really feel. So this should be strange: I feel like my life is out of MY control. I feel like i have no say over MY actions. That is the worst kind of feeling to me. I need to be able to say : "oh i have 30 dollars I'm gonna go buy dog". That's just an example but seriously.
I get it I'm only 17 but how am i suppose to figure out who I'm suppose or want to be when every ones making decisions for me?
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