Pre [its a Prefix]

Pre [its a Prefix]
Mall today with my little rice krispy treat Erin, which when i say I'm hanging with Erin, its never just Erin. It's her, her twin sister, our friend Ashley and sometimes Dani & Stephanie; which i love. I don't think I'll Have time to blog later, so here whats now.

Today's Grievances: Canker sores AND cavities. There needs to be a free dentist, cause I'm about to rip out my 2 back teeth.

So if you're wondering if somethings wrong with your cell, no. He's just ignoring u:
I hate when people ignore u, there needs to be a book on texting etiquette. If you text me and i don't wanna talk; I TELL U!!! Or i make up some excuse, but at least i don't leave u hanging.

Today's outfit: Not sure yet but most likely my sequin skirt look, or maybe something floral, or my Tu-Tu skirt lol. I just wanna look fly :)

Fish tacos today and maybe inception.I always have fun with these girls, and I'm ready to go man hunting. Any Good pick up lines?

Somethings fall apart, i guess we never all together in the first place, huh?

Somethings fall apart, i guess we never all together in the first place, huh?
Today i start with something that hurt. I blogged about *him in some earlier posts [there's just something about summer], *him isn't a good name changed, for now on *him will be known as **Miguel. **Miguel, i hate saying that I've fallen for people but i really did with him. Even though our last "talk" was about figuring it out when he got back and we haven't really talked talked but it never feels that way. Turns out he isn't coming back. He is going away, and i don't know when i will see him again. The last chance that "we" had gone. I always held out hope for this one, even though he played me. "You're the one i want"... And like 5 others too. Right, babe?
I even cried a tad, but I'm over it.I'm hear when you're ready to be a man,but don't be surprised if I'm already gone.

Had lunch with my sister, got some sun. Good day. Didn't go to bed last night. Ready to crash

You cant cry and fall apart over what happened, or what you lost; if it was never really all together in the first place.

The Doctors, Bentobloggy & the excitement

The Doctors, Bentobloggy & the excitement
Today i feel sick, really sick. Vomited. So like any normal teenager i emailed The Doctors [TV show]. Told them about my problems. Hopefully i get some help. They are the experts anyway, and why go to a whole bunch of doctors when there are 4 (5) great ones there?!?!

Somedays a girl just needs her best friend. The fact that shes a thousand miles away and most of what i want to tell her cannot be told in 150 words or less, sucks. I love her tho :)

Bentobloggy- An amazing blog i stumbled upon. Having a giveaway and i'm not even gonna lie; i want to win. I've never won anything. Well once i entered my mom for this contest to win a cruise, she won. But that doesnt count. It's a really great blog, so you should check it out!!

Todays Griveance's: Being sick. We should all be healthy all the time.

Todays outfit (if i get the strength to get out my PJS): Floral romper with heels, flower ring and key necklace :)

If my post today seems empty, i'm sorry.I'm just ready to go to bed.

Even the best fall down sometimes....

Even the best fall down sometimes....
Another day of nothing. Rob* still manage to piss me off even though i hadn't talk to him since yesterday

Today's grievance's: Canker sores...EW

Nobody remembers when they were a baby, from out the womb [or test tube] to crying and having random stranger and hold us; its all a blur. I have a feeling that this is when i realized i was meant to be Unforgettable. My whole life, I'm supposed to be Marylin Monroe [minus the dieing young]. For me "sexting" is a no-no. I'm trying to be a paleontologist/ fashion designer. Cant be having stuff like that out there. My moment of bliss is when I'm getting dressed. That's when i feel like Jesus: I have the whole world at my finger tips, the ability to look like a rock star.

Today's Outfit: Navy sundress, black studded flip flops and my key necklace. Very Bohemian today :)

Only 21 more days, then its the year that counts.. Nervous much???

What i dont get...& the V-card

What i don't get...& the V-card
Today was a boring day but luckily i have lots of stuff to rant about.

What i don't get: Bored, thought I'd text Rob*. What turned from reminiscing to a mess: Should've been expected on my part. I love you; Three words that of all people i cant have heard by this one semi-significant boy. How can you love a girl that you haven't texted or called for months, or that you haven't realized shes deleted you off her facebook.Again. When SHE texts you, you don't seem invested in the conversation. I don't get it. So i had to tell him. Truth is that i really care about him, but i don't love him. We've never been in a relationship. And even as a friend things always drifted to talks about "Us". I used to say i loved Rob* as a friend but i can't even say that now. He Loves me but he doesn't care about me. A big fight then i have to sit and here his sexual conquest in class. I don't forget that kinda stuff.Flipping out because i don't wanna hug u, All the drama. I can get past. The one thing holding me back from him. It doesn't matter, hes gonna keep player playing.. I don't get it one bit.

V-card: Whether religious or not, an act of abstinence or celibacy is there. Mine happens to be religious; in 5th grade "i found Jesus". Religious for a while but not so much any more. Back then i used god as my crutch for survival.Now he's there for support, not as means to live. I made my Purity pledge and I've stuck with it. It's not something I'm willing to give up. Even if i didn't believe in god i don't think I'd want to have pre-martial sex. Its hard, it always hurt me.Guys, they don't get it. Most say they do but down the line, i get cut again. A lot say if it was just sex, not oral they could do that. But apparently no intimacy means no go. I'm still waiting for the guy that doesn't assume a big breasted women means easy. I'm still waiting for the day that my abstinence doesn't shame me....

(Sorry for the long post, i just gotta vent)

Today's Outfit: Pajamas

Today's grievance's: Men.

Too much shaking my head today.Maybe its all the disgrace

*Name has been changed :)

Butterfly kisses

Butterfly kisses
It takes something like getting you're eye brows done to really set things straight.
I've had so much on my mind. Men on my mind. The other night i was looking back at old myspace messages [from when i lived in Florida]. Just going over it made me see how much I've grown up. I always said back then how i wasn't scared of being some one and i really believed that. But looking back, i was. And i let alot of great guys that i really cared about go. Especially Paul*. The most perfect guy for me,even wanted to go out with me but no because he was "too nice". WTF??? i was an idiot. I think i realize that when i started to fall for him, the same time i found out i was moving. That last day, came him just to say goodbye to me and yes i know it sounds cliche and mushy and i hate it but kinda fit perfectly into each others arms. There i said it. Point is, i don't wanna mess things up like i usually do.

Today's grievance's: Mosquito's.

Today's outfit: In the picture, paired with those cowboy boots.Never wore boots with a dress [minus leggings] before, and i liked it :]

God if you're reading, just let me know if I'm doing alright.

Cause When a Heart break no it dont break even....

Cause When a Heart break no it don't break even.....
I just don't get why after knowing some one for so long, u act like this. It really irritates me. Cause you think someones grown up and you think they've change but no; they're still the same. You still have the same issues you did back then. I don't think this is something i can get past. Maybe its time to finally let this go.....

Today's Grievance's: Knowing the smart thing to do. Why cant we live in oblivious bliss? Right? Ignorance is bliss, that crap. Yea why can't i have that. Why do i always have to make the responsible decision?

Today's Outfit: As you can see in my picture; Badgely Mischa blazer, basic white ribbed tank, 579 mini skirt with Pink necklace :)
I am addicted to this blazer, got it for 48 bucks at off neimens. This is def. one of my favorite go to looks

I just wish i had it all figured it out. I'm not counting on my happily ever after, I'm counting on stability. Whatever that means, but i need some of it. So if you're reading- could u pass some along???